2015

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The new year has come and taken off. Already we’re into February. School has been flashing by, I’m busy with an internship and my job. I’m coming down with a nasty sore throat and have a million other things to do, but I felt compelled to blog.

I’ve been realizing more and more that life is short and precious. I didn’t come to this conclusion because of one occasion, just little daily reminders. Seeing my grandparents grow older, losing my fourth grade teacher to cancer, coming up on my graduation in June. The things I’ve previously put value in somehow seem shallow.

I don’t believe in New Year’s resolutions. Probably because I’ve never kept one and haven’t met people who are committed and faithful to theirs. After several months life catches up. There’s little time to food prep or go to the gym, read your Bible or spend more time with your family. New Year’s resolutions are always so drastic. But they don’t have to be.

Instead of labeling my goals and making them unattainable, I’m going to take baby steps. The older I get, the more I realize it’s not about what you wear or the current trends. What everyone’s doing. It’s about who you are as a person and what you do for those around you. Cliche, I know. But I have been feeling this so intensely lately. I want to make a change. I want to make a difference. Even if it’s just with the words I say in my everyday conversations. I want to love more.

I know it sounds very appropriate and timely with Valentine’s day coming up in less than two weeks, but I don’t mean a superficial love. I don’t mean sending flowers or buying chocolates. I mean loving people on a deeper basis. For who they are. I want to see the good in people and to cling on to it. Too often I find myself focusing on the negative, judging too quickly. I want to be more aware of how I’m treating people. There is something good about everyone. Find it, and focus on it instead of the bad.

I want to be more effective with my time. I have been going nonstop from 8 in the morning until 10 every night. The time I do have is precious. I want to learn watch fewer shows and spend less time on social media, and spend more time doing. Whether it’s hiking or just sitting and engaging in intelligent conversation with people, I want to expand my knowledge and my acquaintances. I want to learn as much as I can in this short life we’re given. Knowledge is power, they say. It really is. By knowing about issues that plague our society we can make a difference. I want to make a difference.

This year, 2015, I want to be more deliberate. I want to make a change in the lives of everyone I come in contact with. No matter how small it is.

This year, I want to do more, to love more, and to live more.